Ah, a cool thing that I just found that is worth sharing, the lyrics to Blurry, by Puddle of Mudd. They were found here via Lyrics.com I woke up this morning feeling pretty sick, and I played this song while I was getting ready for work. A real good pick me up, as well as a good way to wake up!



"Blurry"

Everything’s so blurry
and everyone's so fake
everybody’s empty
and everything is so messed up
pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble and I crawl
& you could be my someone
you can be my scene
you know that I’ll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that’s not very far

(Chorus)
can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me

everyone is changing
there’s no one left that’s real
make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
you could be my someone
you can be my scene
you know that I will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what your doing
I wonder where you are
there’s oceans in between us
but that’s not very far

(Chorus)
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face the pain you gave to me

Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to run away
nobody showed you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to run away

(Chorus)
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
can you take away the pain
the pain you gave to me
this pain you gave to me

This is the start of my second week of co-oping but things are going slow somewhat to be honest. Plus, this is a start of a new, um existance, well one without David. He broke up with me on Saturday, over the phone. Cuz I haven't put out yet. How lame. That made me realize that the relationship was based on a lie. But I'm not worried though, he was a waste of 6 weeks, however long it was!

Besides, I missed going out to the mall with my cousins anyway! Also, my B-day is next Tuesday, so that means that I can start fresh and new. Mentioning "Fresh and New" makes me want to listen to that song by Kelis called "Young, Fresh, and New". You already know that the Neptunes had their hand on that track but I love their producing! Wish that I could listen to it now, but I am at work until 5pm today. Maybe I play the song while on my lunch break. Sounds like a plan! But I digress...I don't want to rant and rave about what happened to me on Saturday, it's just not worth all of that typing! Baby, I'm moving on!

Right now I am still enduring my first day of co-op with Langsam Library. They were nice enough to put me on full time for the summer quarter. Now all I have to do is get my gpa back up to at least a 2.5 to remain eligable for another practice quarter. I am sad that my gpa is a 2.3 though. Basically, it sucks. I need to create a back up plan just in case I won't be able to stay in the program for the next quarter. Its bothers me because that was the main reason that I decided to attend the University of Cincinnati- because I heard that they have a well established co-op education program. There is nothing wrong with finding an alternative I must say. Maybe I can do an internship in the summer of 2003, which seems so far away from now. The word "internship" leaves me with a bad taste in my mouth (no pun intended, although is was truly obvious)! As for today, it went by kinda fast in the morning then it slowed down right around 1pm, when I took my lunch. I think that I still have a full belly, plus, I didn't have many assignments to do today since the Admin office is temporarliy in the conference room as they recarpet the actual office, so things probably won't pick up until Wednesday by my guess. I'm working with the business manager of the office, Becky, so I'll probably will be doing a lot of work with all of the catalog orders throughout the library, which is a lot of paperwork from what I know about it thus far. I'm looking forward to the challenge actually, because I get to learn some new stuff this summer.
My dream co-op job is to work for a record label in the promotions department or anything advertising and marketing related. That would be so cool.
Plus, I'm hoping to move in with some friends for the fall quarter nearby campus. Myself and three of my friends were considering rooming together which would be cool to me. My plan was to move out around/ during/ before my junior year anyways. Good opportunity- I really hope so! In the meantime I know that I need to throw out or give away a lot of my stuff. I have too much stuff actually.
As for the smaller things that are going on in my life right now, I did get my phone problem straightened out. I ended up all the way over in Florence, Kentucky to see if I could get my cell phone repaired, but I had to end up buying a new phone. Oh well, I learned my lesson! Don't drop any more phones, especially when there is water nearby! I got to see David on Wedesday Friday and Saturday, which is good news to mention. Oh yea, how can I forget my birthday! I placed a birthday countdown on my webpage!
Um, that's about it on the good side of things, I am still having arguments with my Mom and she is stressing me out especially when I mentioned to her that I would like to move out within the next few months. She can be so overprotective sometimes, it gets on my nerves to an extent. I definately have to tell her that I'm gonna move out by the time fall quarter classes begins. That conversation itself is gonna be hell in its own right. My goodness!

Happy Father's Day to all the Dads out there.
On a day like this, it reminds me how much that I miss my Dad, and how much things have changed since he's been gone.
There are more things that I could say about what is going on in my life, but I think that the two sentences above speak for themselves.

Yesterday ended up to be a pretty kick ass day! Except for the fact when I went to the Cingular Wireless store downtown, they were closed at 5:40 and the sign on the door clearly shows that they close at 6pm on weekdays. I didn't let that one thing spoil my day. I still went out with David after that. We ended up in Tri-County mall at Lerner's where my friend Simi happens to work. That was my plan all along, to have Simi meet David, but I just didn't let David in on it until after the fact. I told him that it was "all the part of my plan."
After that, we wondered around the mall a bit, got some food, and then ended the night by chilling up in Eden Park. It was such a nice night out, and (for me) it's hard to believe that we've been together for a month now (exactly a month on June 9th)! My expectations weren't that high, but that philosophy is applied to a lot of things that are going on in my chaotic life.
It's about that time that I get back to work for the time being.
But before I go....

Buy something! Like that cd by Ashanti!

Cool, one of my friends have a journal set up now! I guess it was time for one of my actual friends to set up one. Rachel is one of my friends from high school and we go to the same university. I just found out via email this morning that she is on a trip overseas, I forgot the name of the country. Sounds like I need to read that email again. :) Right now I am at work until 1pm. Its 9:35 right now, four hours can seem like such a long time when you are sitting around. Yesterday work went by fast because I spent most of my time packing boxes because they are currently recarpeting the office (right now as I type this). My left shoulder is paying for all of that lifting of those boxes, but i'll live. :P
I'm looking forward to the rest of today though. Once I get off work I'm going to run home to burn JE Heartbreak by Jagged Edge for my girl Dal, along with Ashanti (which I copied from my cousins bootleg...dang that's ghetto as hell!). She's gonna let me copy her Ludacris Word or Mouf, well, actually it's her friend's cd. This is all twisted! Well, after that, I have to run downtown to return some books that I should have turned in on Sunday, but I got lazy and didn't go down there, so I have to pay some fines on them. Also, I have to stop by Cingular Wireless to purchase a new phone, because the one that I have now is damaged because I dropped the stupid thing in some water! Hopefully I don't have to pay too much for a new Nokia phone! But this time around, I am going to get the phone insurance so I won't have to go through with this again! Sometimes I can be so clumsy! Hopefully, I should be able to get these errands done and make it up to Clifton by 6pm because I am meeting David at that time. I have no clue what we are going to get into this evening, but I know that we will be happy to see each other at the least.
Today is going to be a kick ass day!

Exams are finally over and it feels great to be out of school for like, um, nine days? Well, at least I am working full time at the library and I actually can say that I will be making a decent amount of money, hey, its better than nothing! My gpa wasn't high enough to get a real co-op job. Hopefully I can get my gpa up during summer quarter so I don't have to worry about it. Man, I hope that I'm not trying to be an introvert, but maybe its a part of my nature and I need to break out of that mold.
I went to Kenwood mall with my buddy from high school, Cass. I haven't seen her since graduation night, but somehow we managed to keep in contact since 2000, which is more than I can say for others I guess. It was fun catching up on old times and walking through the mall seeing old classmates. I swear, a lot of my classmates work at that mall, or at least shop there a lot, and it is good to see them, well, some of them.
I should get to sleep very soon, but right now I am speaking with a friend via yahoo messenger about a crisis that she is having. Right now, that seems more important.